Forgetting How to Breathe...

~ Posted on Monday, July 4, 2011 at 8:41 AM ~

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2 more months to go before Spicy Baby's arrival!!!

And I'm really, really, really starting to worry - especially when I realised now that I actually forgot how to breathe! (As in breathing techniques during the labor...)

Oh man... I am in trouble...

I read through my post (in my old blog) about my supernatural childbirth with Ben and, nope... clever me did not note down what I did for my breathing techniques during the labor. Ah heck...I need to dig out my antenatal class notes - which was taken 2 years ago!

Seriously, I totally forgot about the breathing techniques even when I was in the midst of giving birth to Ben - thank God my hubby was next to me to remind me the techniques!

Of course, this time round, I kept telling and reminding my hubby to REMIND ME the breathing techniques when the time comes cos' I'll be sure to forget it even if I memorise it by heart now.

I just hope I won't go to this level...

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Pregnancy at month 7...

~ Posted on Wednesday, June 22, 2011 at 8:41 AM ~

Wow... I can't believe it! We are cruising into the 7th month of my pregnancy now! Updates for this month since my previous status updates in pregnancy at month 6 are as follow:

#1: This baby is STILL a wee bit SPICY BABY, but hey, mummy's snacking on sweet stuff too!

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I'm still wolfing down spicy food at month number 7 though lately I've more and more been eating more  sweet stuff... like chocolates, cakes, doughnuts and stuff... yup.. CHOCOLATES definitely! Just can't seem to have enough of it! Especially this chocolate layered bun with choc cream filling:

I can eat 2 of this in one go... yummmmsss!

#2: Weight Gain

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I have gained yet another 1.9 extra kg for this month, making it to 53.9kg now. Oh crap, crap, crap. My gynae already mentioned the 3kg gain during my last month visit.. and I'm adding almost 2kg this month... gulp!! Anyway, gynae said weight gain is normal, to continue eating like normal... phew...

#3: Gynae check-ups

During this round of check-up, we tried out the 4D ultrasound machine again and still, I am not able to see with my own eyes the gender of Spicy Baby. Can you believe it?! 7 months already and we still can't see the gender!!!

He or she is always on his/her sides and closing legs... what is there to see? So ladies and gentlemen... gender = still unknown yet... Btw, Spicy Baby's weight is now over 1kg few grams already.

#4: Breastfeeding during pregnancy

Yup, my breastmilk production has been reduced to nothing from 5th month. But Ben is still dry suckling from me, and I can tell he's doing so for comfort nursing  as he only suckles me when he's about to go for his daytime nap and bedtime at night (each time around 10 minutes to half hour duration - depending how playful he is)

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Again, I hope that we can go for tandem nursing when the baby is born and I hope that I could make tandem nursing works!

(*** NEW!) #5: Glucose Tolerance Test (GTT)

New thing to report this month! I finally had to take the GT test after being able to avoid it when I was pregnant with Ben. Apparently this test is to be taken at 7th month pregnancy, especially if you have family history of having diabetes. Both my parents had them and my mum passed away due to total kidney failure caused by diabetes.

We were seeing a private gynae right up until my 7th month when I was carrying Ben and we didn't take the test but this time, we are consulting under a semi private hospital and our gynae told us that I MUST take the test due to my family history.

So, the night before the test, I started fasting from 9pm, taking only plain water and nothing else, and waited till the next morning 9am to have my blood test (just a little prick on my finger) and was given this  300ml glucose solution to drink.

I almost felt guilty drinking it as it tasted exactly like soft drinks, kinda like having soft drinks for my breakfast! But then I was too hungry to complain anyway!

Result: My blood sugar level before the taking the drink is 4.6 (anything below 6 is normal) and after 2 hrs (only take plain water) is 6.3 (normal reading is between 6.1 to 7). Yeay! Passed!

(*** NEW!) #6: My expanding rear end?!

Another new thing to note, I have just heard a remark from my MIL that she noticed my rear end is getting bigger! Yikes! I'm feeling rear-end conscious now!

So there you go, updates as at 7 months pregnancy... and I'll be scheduled for fortnightly gynae check-ups from now on... Have a blessed week and thank you for reading!

My Heart Is Tearing Apart...

~ Posted on Thursday, June 16, 2011 at 8:47 AM ~

With about 3 months more to go before I'm due to deliver Spicy Baby, I can't help but feel as if being pregnant with our 2nd child is tearing my heart apart...

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I hope I don't come across as someone who hates being pregnant. I'm NOT! But I'm not exactly ga-ga over being pregnant either especially when the tiredness and exhaustion is making me cranky and stressed! Anyhoooo, the feeling is more towards the fear and worries on how can my heart be divided somemore to make room for the new person who is going to appear in our lives in less than 3 months time?

When I first found out I was pregnant, to be honest, I was (and still am) in a state of mourning. Not for the death of anyone (*touch wood*) but more to mourning over the soon to be lost 1 to 1 time with my 1st child.

* Me & Ben - pic taken in Sept 2010

Is this feeling much more worse for SAHMs? Is it because we are the one who's most often there with our child 24/7/365? Through the good and bad times? Through the frustrating, stressful, cheeky and happy moments?

I wondered if I am not a SAHM, would I feel better than what I'm feeling now? I mean, if I'm not a SAHM, I wouldn't have been spending most of my time and energy and strength all day long and bonded so close with one person. Maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't feel so guilty and torn apart at the thought of another person coming into our family of 3 now?

I have a friend (she's expecting her 3rd child now) who told me when her 2nd child came along, her relationship with her 1st child is not so close anymore as she felt she needed to protect and bonded closer with the 2nd child seeing that the child is just a newborn and fragile and all.

* Me, Ben and Spicy Baby (still in my bump) at our family trip recently...

I don't want to abandon Ben when Spicy Baby comes along but at the same time, I don't want to be neglecting Spicy Baby too. Hence, the feeling of my heart tearing apart...

I mean, just some personal questions to mummies with more than 1 child,

How do you feel when you found out you are pregnant with your 2nd child?

And how do you handle or deal with it?