I'm a full-time mummy

With about 3 months more to go before I'm due to deliver Spicy Baby, I can't help but feel as if being pregnant with our 2nd child is tearing my heart apart...

I hope I don't come across as someone who hates being pregnant. I'm NOT! But I'm not exactly ga-ga over being pregnant either especially when the tiredness and exhaustion is making me cranky and stressed! Anyhoooo, the feeling is more towards the fear and worries on how can my heart be divided somemore to make room for the new person who is going to appear in our lives in less than 3 months time?

When I first found out I was pregnant, to be honest, I was (and still am) in a state of mourning. Not for the death of anyone (*touch wood*) but more to mourning over the soon to be lost 1 to 1 time with my 1st child.

Is this feeling much more worse for SAHMs? Is it because we are the one who's most often there with our child 24/7/365? Through the good and bad times? Through the frustrating, stressful, cheeky and happy moments?

I wondered if I am not a SAHM, would I feel better than what I'm feeling now? I mean, if I'm not a SAHM, I wouldn't have been spending most of my time and energy and strength all day long and bonded so close with one person. Maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't feel so guilty and torn apart at the thought of another person coming into our family of 3 now?

I have a friend (she's expecting her 3rd child now) who told me when her 2nd child came along, her relationship with her 1st child is not so close anymore as she felt she needed to protect and bonded closer with the 2nd child seeing that the child is just a newborn and fragile and all.

I don't want to abandon Ben when Spicy Baby comes along but at the same time, I don't want to be neglecting Spicy Baby too. Hence, the feeling of my heart tearing apart...

I mean, just some personal questions to mummies with more than 1 child,

How do you feel when you found out you are pregnant with your 2nd child?

And how do you handle or deal with it?

Hubby's birthday is one and a half month more to come, I have no idea what to get for him this year. When it comes to thinking of the birthday gifts for men, I'm always stuck with clothing, wallets and last year was the Star Craft 2 game.

I came across this website and saw this very cool gift idea! My hubby is crazy about war stuff, the history, the army tanks, the whatever sieges and battles and weaponry and wouldn't it be great if I can get this for my hubby's birthday this year?

A tank ride experience in this World War 2-era Centurion Tank! Whoaa! What a unique and memorable way to give your loved ones for his birthday huh?! I bet he'd go berserk with this gift! If only I have the money and the logistics to make this a reality!!

Or how about a gift in the form of an experience in race car driving? I've seen my hubby playing with car racing games on his computer and he has downloaded an app for a racing game onto my iPad as well. Wouldn't it be fun to see my hubby enjoying this?

Gotta start cracking my head soon to think of what to get him for his birthday this year... or should I just saw Spicy Baby is his birthday gift this year? Hehehe...

Now, what are the gift ideas you can recommend to give the special someone in your life?

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When I was young, I have never joined any extracurricular societies or clubs in schools that requires its members to wear special uniforms. Why? I came from an average income family, my mum is a SAHM and our family of 4 (dad, mum, my elder brother and myself) depended on dad's income (he was an electrician then) to survive. So, to fork out money to buy the uniforms and shoes and all are considered unneccessary. I have steered clear of clubs and societies like this even when I went to high school.

But that does not mean I have a negative perception towards uniforms or anyone wearing it in their profession. My dad, though he was an electrician, wears a special uniform provided by his company and everytime I see him in that uniform, I can't help but feel a sense of pride that he's special and different from other blue-collared working class people.

I can also recalled my first encounter with people in uniform (other than my dad) was the nurses in my primary school. Back then, those nurses wore white dresses with a small little cap on their head. Those uniforms don't look like cheap nursing uniform to me back then.

Of course nowadays, with all the technology to mass produce and the creativity of people to design more varieties of uniforms (be it material or color), we can easily find uniforms everywhere. Even small businesses are resorting to having their own company uniforms as a sense of company identity and to look more professional.

Look at this Printed top uniform for instance. Would you have thought it is a nursing uniform? It looks pretty cool and pretty to me!

What are your thoughts about uniforms (be it to wear at school or at work)?

Is it necessary and important?

** Disclosure: This is a sponsored post. All thoughts, opinions and words are 100 % my own.